Scared

So. I am scared. I don't know how to do this. I think part of it is that I worry about our relationship. We have been together for 7 years and are just starting to explore this. I worry about what will happen. I worry that by doing this, and if it doesn't work, it will alter our relationship. That we won't be able to go back if we need to.
I am scared that I can't do this. I am afraid to let go, to not be in control. I hate not being in control. I am scared that I will freak out.