Journal Summary: July 15 - 21

July 15 - R and I had a really good talk last night, and I really think it was beneficial. I really enjoy structured days. I get much more done, and I feel good doing it. I know it pleases R when I do the list, and it pleases me to please him :D We also talked about what R wants from me ultimately. I love his idea for me. I am not sure how well I can make it work, but I will try. We went and saw HP because I was a good girl! I loved it, sooo good!! I can't wait for the last book :D

July 16 - Happy Birthday to me!! The day didn't go exactly as planned. We had a small/short play session. R gave me my bday spankings. He scared me at one point, and it freaked me out. We talked about it and sorted it out. I can't wait to do it again. I didn't realize that knife play would excite me.

July 17 - What a day. J and I talked. It was good. I explained why I was upset and I think we are good again. J and I decided to put on a show for each other/our Doms. I am excited and scared at the same time. I finally got to talk to Ray.

July 18 - R and I slept HORRIBLY last night. And I discovered that it is official. I can't handle the lack of consideration some people have. Oh, and we have decided to have a 3some...now to find our 3rd :D lol

July 19 - Veg day. It was a good day of cuddling. We had a good walk (but my hip hurt). We talked about our love and our relationship. How deliriously happy we still make each other.

July 20 - I love how our relationship is changing. We are becoming more, evolving, learning, growing. I am excited to see where we are going to go with this. How far we can take this. I love that I am growing, that I am becoming me. It makes me think about my job. About being a supervisor. I know I can do it, but should I be? I am forcing it. Is this why I feel like I have so many problems? I want something different. I don't like where it is taking me.

July 21 - I am starting to feel anxious over the start of the new school year. I need to talk to Janet, but I don't think she will/can do anything. I might start looking for something elsewhere. R and I have been more frisky lately, it has been fun, but I really need my hip/groin to feel better.