Journal Summary: August 19 - September 16

August 19/20 - Some shitty stuff happening on Fet. Not a good thing. Well, kinda. It is good in that it is making the community possibly a little bit safer. I can't wait to order my first corset.

August 21 - Went to the falls. It was fun, but didn't really do anything other than watch the fireworks. It's technically the last day of our vacay. The weekend will be busy. I did 30 mins on the Wii Fit today. Love it!

August 22 - Feeling a bit sad and frustrated. I think my piercings are migrating. We are going to head to the tattoo place to get them to look at them tomorrow. We have also purchased some things in the last few days. R bought my first collar. Just have to wait for it to come! I also bought a corset/skirt combo. Again, waiting for it to come in the mail. I am hoping it looks good, cause I want to get a red version to wear for my superhero costume!

August 23 - Back to work tomorrow! Eww! I am going to be working my butt off for the next couple of weeks. We went to the piercer. She changed the ring to a bar. Hopefully it will stop moving. I don't want to take them out :( I got confirmation that my corset shipped today! I hope it fits!!

August 24 - Well, it starts. Time to start the interview process. Fun times. God I hate this part of my job. BUT I get to do some overtime :) I am excited about going to the local tv station for makeover day. I hope I get picked! lol R and I decided to go to the Btown Munch on Wed. I hope it goes well.

August 25/26 - Just busy. Getting caught up, preparing for semester start up. We didn't end up going to the Btown Munch. I was exhausted. I feel bad. The collar left the States! I am excited for it to arrive. I wonder how I will earn it! R wants me to create a list of 10 scenarios to ask potential employees. iam going to have to figure that out a bit!

August 27 - I have started going through the resumes. Nothing promising yet. R and I went over some interview techniques. I am feeling a bit better. The coffee thing is working. Only 3 a week. R is surprised with how well I accepted this. He says I get something for being so good. I wonder what (as a side note? still waiting!!!). I feel better when I have things to do. I like knowing what I have to do at home. It makes things easier. Meal planning, etc. I really want to work on my database.

August 28 - R and I were bad today. We both left work early so we could come home and fuck. We both desperately needed it.

August 29 - Not much to report. Made cookies. Watched a lot of TV. My corset came. It fits fairly well, but the skirt is too small. My period is coming :(

August 30 - Made more cookies. Went to the BDSM 101. There are some smart people there. I also think some people should be doing some more research. I am excited to try new things. I can't wait for R to bring out the flogger. I am questioning how much of a submissive I am I am feeling a bit confused.

August 31 - Where did the summer go??? OH my collar came today! I like my name on it more than I thought I would. I am going to want lots more in different colours! So now I need to earn it somehow. I am sure R has something in mind. I am still trying to figure out our Civil War costumes. I need to get over the whole matching thing. I also need to find a skirt that I can wear with my corset.

September 1 - Well, my first flogging didn't go so well. I need to figure out a way to explain my pour memory to R. If I am focusing on something, I can't hear. If I am doing something, concentrating hard, and I am told something, I am going to forget it. It's like when I am reading. I guess not so good at the multi-tasking?

September 2 - Trying to figure out what to wear with the corset. R keeps talking about hitting an event this month. My main concern is shoes. My feet are so horrible. I have no idea where to buy good nice shoes for these kinds of thing.

September 3 - Crappy day at work. No one else can fix anything. We went out for dinner with A. We told her about our kink. It went well! Chatted for 5 hours!

September 4 - Busy day.

September 5 - Spending has to stop. We are going to start saving. Get rid of our bills. Save. Buy a house. I hate the basement.

September 6 - I need to figure out how to ask for stuff. I am feeling undesirable. R hasn't initiated anything in a while...

September 7 - We need to figure out communication stuff. We talked. Turns our R is worried about disappointing me. We did a small play. I want more.

September 8 - Tired. Busy. Just the beginning

September 9 - Not happy at work, but I am working on that. Hired my first student. We need a house.

September 10/11/12 - I think I want to put Nixie away for a bit. R doesn't seem to understand that I am not into this right now. I am so tired. I don't want to have to worry about making time to play, when I am worried about getting chores done, clean clothes, sleeping. Maybe in a couple of weeks.

September 13 - Did a lot. R and I had a talk. I think he understands that I am stressing over it. Next Munch tomorrow. Excited about straightening my hair.

September 14 - Went to munch. Had a good time. I think I am ready to go to more munches. I want to go to an event. We will see. I need something more for my wardrobe though.

September 15 - I am worried. I know everything will be ok. We can do it. I am getting used to it. I want to go over the bills. I need to have an understanding of where we are. I love him so much. We have survived worse.

September 16 - I am happy with whom I have hired. I am actually liking that part of my job. It went better this year. As much as I complain, I really do love start up. R and I have decided to do a townhouse instead of a detached. We feel it is a better investment, and a good first step. So we need him to keep his job or find a new one. If he does lose his job, so be it. We just have to postpone. We can do this.