Tonight

I need your help tonight. I've had this buzz under my skin, in my body for a couple of days now. I need help getting it out. I need you, want you to spank me. I need the release. Please hun? I've been feeling it build and build, and I don't know how to get it out!
I need your help when we do this.
I know this is whatI want, but I don't know where to set up. I don't know what will be the best position. You know my hips, how can we do this?
I need you to help me to remember to breathe.
I need you to let me cry.
I need you to hold me, and pet me.
Am I right in asking for this? Am I allowed to ask for this?
I feel so confused some days. I don't know what my boundaries are. I don't know when it's ok to curl up at your feet, and rest my head in your lap.
I'll be waiting.