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Hugs

R mentioned something the other day, and it got me thinking.

The community, the kink community, it is a very touchy feely group.  We are always hugging and touching. And I am not talking groping, or inappropriate touches.

R's comment was that he had to stop himself from hugging the vanillas. This from someone who, when we first met, didn't know how to hug.

I love the hugs, and I hope they keep coming.

*muah*

Nixie’s next semi permanent piercing

You know it is funny some days I wonder if in a prior life I worked with the devil. I get such a buzz out of control and making decisions in all aspects of my life, but I think I enjoy controlling Nixie the most. There is just this high that I cannot describe as I watch her change and the look on her face as she does things. She pleases me a great deal in so many little ways. She was brave and had her nipples pierced for me such pretty nipples.

We made a deal about her getting corset pierced, but she is not sure about it anymore so she has put the piercing decisions in my hands and Nixie is in the mood to get something pierced. So what should I pierce next I was thinking of a VHP I have always liked the idea of that and the pleasure that it can bring, but I suspect I want to talk to someone that has had it done and get some personal input on it. I have read a great deal about this process. If you know me you know I tend to do a lot of research before I move anything forward. I read a frightening amount on things then do back research and go to medical documentation for follow up in some cases. By the time I start talking to someone about it tend to have devoured so much information on it that I sound like I already know the subject well.

In the back of my head I kind of want to do the corset piercing with my own hands, but that will be a while before I start touching that and a lot of pre work before I am even close to that. I do know a few people that I will be leaning on, bothering and wanting to learn from at different stages in my development in piercing. I am so surprised that medical play has turned into such a deep interest of mine can anyone say Urethral sounds? Someone has already told Nixie that she is fucked and laughed.

In the mood to post and write

It has been a while since I have been in the mood to do much writing and to push certain things, but I am in the mood today. Last night was full of laughter and fun and I think that has set me up to ride my normal high on life attitude instead of my more destructive phase.

I shape my world again and all things within it because that is all we can do from day to day. I am so in a world bending and shaping mood so let’s roll the dice and let things ride.

Nixie has a few e-mails to go over that should start putting her into the proper headspace.

For those new to the blog you will tend to find that I absolutely suck at this blogging thing. I am intentionally vague as I tend not to share well with others, but I hope to start posting more here again.

Skid Wrap + Blood = Amazing Idea.

So, I had this idea.  And I may not be able to do it the way I want to....but we will see.

Picture this - a dress made of of skid wrap, needles, and blood.
Basically, I want to make a dress out of the plastic, than have someone poke me with needles.  I want to see the blood run down the underside of the plastic, between it and my skin.  I think it could look freakin amazing.

Now if I can't get someone to do it with blood, preferably mine, flowing from my body, rather than a syringe full of blood, my other idea is to do the skid wrap dress, but then use paint and a syringe. Then put small holes in the plastic, squirt the paint in, and watch it make its progress down the inside of the plastic.

I wonder if I can make this happen :D

To do list

So, I started to do this list on FetLife, but you know FL and it's search function...
I would totally lose my list! lol

• play with wax - again (attempted end of December - my back was really sensitive and I got VERY giggly - we will have to try again)
• do some research on needle play
• try needle play
• learn how to tie rope
• be tied by rope :D
• have more/different things smacked against my ass
• GET A VIOLET WAND!
• PLAY WITH VIOLET WAND!
• figure out my first public scene
• do the marker scene I thought up (public) - still need to work out details
• decide on next piercing
• learn more about water boarding

To be updated as I go :D

Decisions?

How do you decide what events to attend?
How do you pick between the different play parties and the munches?
How do you pick between a munch and a play party?

Makeup - Help/Ideas

I want to figure out how to do funky edgy makeup.

Does anyone have any sites they can recommend? What makeup brand do you prefer?

Any and all help would be much appreciated!

Examples: